in love
Tom & I laughed at some person or other on the TV who was insufferably self-absorbed, conceited...
Tom said "reminds me of my family..."
(His family is awful!)
I replied: "Well YOU'RE not like that... But I know I'm a little self-absorbed sometimes."
Tom said "No, you're something different."
I contemplated this for a moment, not knowing what to say.
Then he said: "I am very self-absorbed. I would be more so though if I had never met you."
And I felt one of those deep pangs I feel sometimes, when I really notice Tom, when I forget everything else and really notice him as a person, I remember how I might not have done this properly when we first met... but as the years have gone by now I really think of him in such a conscientious way, that just looking at him can break my heart, and the thought of him not existing hurts me to the core... sometimes it surprises me, I look at him and I think that is not just some guy, I see him as a whole person, I care about what this person thinks of me and what this person feels more than I care about anything else in the whole world... and I know this is love...
5 comments:
That is so sweet, for what he said and the way you love him. xx
OK. You're killing me lately. Sniff!
Aww, that's so sweet. I now how you feel. It's strange that we can feel that way about someone else. Love them so completely but we can't do that with ourselves. I think about that sometimes. Doesn't my BF see all the flaws I have? Yet I don't notice his (or they just don't matter). I've been trying hard to see myself as others see me (and ignore the things that I don't like). I think you have a really great husband and you are lucky!
I love that insight you have into who Tom is. That is love, and it's wonderful that you have it.
Wow.
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