neurotic weekend

I did a really embarrassing thing at work on Friday. My supervisor walked by and I asked if there was anything special I needed to know for the launch of one of my sites this Monday morning, since it was a little different than the others.

He said no, it would be normal routine; but then he looked over my head at the other guys in my dept. and said "but you know, Jim, how clients are after a site goes live, they have lots of edits sometimes".

And I don't know why I did this (things were super hectic and my mind was going a mile a minute) -- I said "I've done lots of sites too before". But I said it really bitchy.

And later I went to his office to ask an urelated question, and before I said anything he asked me to close the door!! And he said "hey I didn't mean to offend you in any way before, I know you have lots of years of experience".

And I completely crumpled and said stuff like "no no, I'm so embarrassed, I just had lots of stuff going on and sometimes speak faster than I think..." blah blah that I was sorry.

But now I am worried he sees me as this bitchy, defensive female... I really never say things like that so I don't know why I was so annoyed... (And I did not turn around when I said it but am afraid the other guys went real quiet too, like WTF?)

My friend Bob says maybe I have been sensing little things here and there that they say that might be making me feel intimidated but I don't know, I am about 100% certain I overreacted.

Of course, now that I'm writing about it maybe it feels like not that big a deal, and no one at work will ever think about it again, I'm the only person thinking neurotically about it over the weekend.