This Monday

Every week, I think the same thing... "This Monday, I will start over. I will do so good this week. I will start fresh."

And I end up not doing it.

There are so many things I wish for this upcoming week... I wish I wish. But they never happen and I end up being miserable. What is it, will-power? I don't know.

I wish:

• I would run every morning instead of just two or three.
  
• I would not drink so much coffee and get so jittery.
  
• I would not spend so much money on lunch. I would pack a healthy lunch of rice and veggies. No bagels.
  
• I would not think every morning about how ugly I am. I would not think about it every second of the day when I am talking to somebody. I would not let it get me so depressed.
  
• I would not buy a couple mini-bottles every morning before I go into work.
  
• I would not think about how miserable I am at my job, and instead focus on how lucky I am
  
• I would write more and volunteer more than I do.