nostalgia
I am nostalgic today for younger days when I dressed up in costume and went all crazy on the town. Tom is a fuddy-duddy and too cool, so he does not like to get dressed in costume. I guess I could have done it anyway but did not seem to have any energy this weekend... and Guapo is the same way, he has been laying around all day with me. We are feeding off of each other's moods, as usual.
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I finally went to a dermatologist this week (who acted like I was an idiot and made me feel even more self-conscious than I already am, might I add, because I said I was 'not interested in any injectables').
BUT, she did recommend some special anti-wrinkle cream (mucho expensive, of course, something I probably should not have spent but I did it anyway) AND she prescribed me some Retin-A. And gave some good advice on the best kinds of lotion to use, etc.
(I did not even tell Tom about it because he gets so irritated if I hint about how self-conscious I am about myself, saying how there is nothing wrong with me, etc.)
Anyway, armed with this professional opinion and actual medical prescription, I feel a little better, like I am doing 'all I can'. I know I will never look 20 again and will get progressively worse, but at least I am doing the best I can. I know it is not magical and am trying not to get my hopes up, but she did say that the retin-A should help a bit with the lines under my eyes in about six months.
I despise these feelings.
3 comments:
There's nothing wrong with taking care of yourself. I cannot, however, imagine you ever looking ugly, regardless of age.
I despise those feelings, too. That's why I usually ignore them!
But, the Retin-A really will help. I've used it for acne before. Just make sure you use it at night and slather on the sunscreen during the day, it makes skin more sensitive to sun damage.
I have this hollowness under my eyes that makes me look so very tired all the time so I do want to try some sort of injectables, but I'm too scared. I'm worried I'll be one of those rare people that develops a weird allergic reaction that causes my face to swell to the size of a beach ball. There would just be no good way to explain that to people.
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