feeling raw
Made the obligatory call this weekend to my parents and the big controversy was that my aunt put her dog's dishes in the dishwasher (so unsanitary!).
I am having a blue week at work. Tom is going away this Saturday to visit his great-aunt (I think I mentioned her before, she practically raised him)... her memory is getting bad and Tom wants to visit her as much as he can before it gets worse.
I have met her before and love her, she is a pistol... but I cannot go because I only have so much vacation-time before end of year (I have enough to go away with Tom at x-mas to L.A. and that's it).
I am still sad I cannot go with him. He is sad for her. Also I will be blue for the week while he's gone. But I have some plans with friends this weekend... Also hopefully the weather will be good and I can go sit outside at cafes with Guapo and drink coffee and read my kindle...
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otherwise: I am feeling weird here at work this week... is it because Tom is going away? I feel so weird like I am raw, vulnerable or something... I cannot stand these guys talking to me sometimes. I caught one of them staring at my boobs on Friday, and I thought "my fault I'm wearing a tight shirt" and then I was so mad at myself after, when I didn't do anything wrong.
I think I just get weird when I am faced with alone-time, without Tom.
4 comments:
I bet your week without him will go fast and then you will be so glad when he comes home and you'll have new things to talk about.. That is too bad about his aunt, I've never had that in my family but I imagine it is very hard. I don't really know what to tell you about the boob lookers, sorry.
My husband's great aunt practically raised him too and was more of a grandmother than his actual grandmother was...it is sometimes difficult for people to understand the connection that they can have. I think it is great Tom is going to visit her. Sorry you can't go. But I just wanted to tell you I totally get the connection thing. We are fortunate that Aunt Florence is in a nursing home within walking distance to our home. *hugs*
It's totally natural that you'd feel blue without your companion. Maybe you can find something to make your time alone special and comfortable.
Also? Guys look at boobs. I don't think they can help it. You are not at fault in this transaction. Xo
I'm so used to HUBS working late hours that when he comes home early, well, sometimes it spoils my mood.
I know! It's horrible! But, sometimes I feel like if I could just have more time alone I'd get more done. Even though I know this is ridiculous and it's certainly not HUBS' fault I haven't produced a critically acclaimed film by now.
Our minds are tricky, aren't they?
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